“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.”
We just want to be with You.
These words struck my heart during worship this past Sunday with their truth… and immediately I envisioned a fire.
No worries, it was the controlled type of fire- you know the type that you gather and curl up around with family and friends.
The kind of fire that instantly echos sounds of laughter and compatible, understanding silence amid the crackling of wood and dancing flames.
The kind that feels like being held… or like holding the hand of someone who completely understands.
A fire that beckons to you in the most welcoming way, as if it is so happy you could make it, whispering that the fire would be a little less complete without you there, just as you are.
Because its January my initial vision was that of a fireplace, though upon further reflection, a campfire would be equally relatable.
And as these lyrics continued to resound in my head, my Pastor began his message and in his lesson he made a profound remark in relation to the passage above.
“Did you know God only has good thoughts about you?”
… wait… what?
You mean to tell me all those times throughout the day when I am counting or recounting every weakness and wondering how God, even with his divine patience, could put up with me… He’s never wondered the same thing?
He’s never thought of me as anything other than wholly redeemed, deeply loved, highly favored, graced with glory…
Because… unfortunately… I have given Him ample opportunity to understandably do so…
Further more, you mean to tell me He’s never shaken His head in irritation, rolled his eyes in annoyance or “facepalmed” in exasperation… as He is rebuilding and cleaning up whatever it is I have destroyed or made a mess of?
Are you saying He’s never questioned whether I was too far out to make it worth it to bring me back, again? He’s never considered throwing in the towel?
… Can you imagine, my Pastor began to share, if we lived our lives with such a thought process about ourselves.
A thought process full of only good thoughts about ourselves.
At the end of the day I took an inventory of what thoughts I felt circled through my mind the most in terms of myself. And sadly, I realized, that if I were compiling a “Top 10” sort of list or most commonly used words- a fair portion of the time my thoughts toward myself were not very… good.
The old thoughts arose, you know sentences that begin with; “Am I… I should… I’m not… I’ll never…” then ending with something you should stop, start, do more, do less… or you’ve concluded that you’re not enough, too much, mediocre…
And I sat up as the Father beckoned me to sit with Him by the fire.
We sat there for a bit… it took a minute to unload. And toss every doubt, trace of guilt, piece of shame, shred of comparison and critical fear into the flame.
All the while His Word sharing what He sees, and all the wonderful parts He knows is inside of me. Because He put them there.
Many parts are revealed in time. His time. And He is so excited for the day I’ll discover them.
But meanwhile, he bids me not to devalue those wonderful pieces He has already revealed.
Also to remember not to call myself by my sin, but by my name, for that is how He calls me, and who He has created me to be. He sees past the exterior, into the heart and beyond.
Beneath the dust of this world, wonders have been purposefully placed in each one of us.
That’s what He sees. His vision. His dream. His creation. His daughter.
That “controlled” fire I suppose is also sort of an engulfing fire, a refining fire… a flame residing in each one of us.
I am fearfully and wonderfully made. And my Creator’s works are wonderful.
All of them.
And I know that.
And in knowing that, confidence is restored. An ability to marvel and love and rejoice with others whole heartedly is renewed.
We are all called to the fire. Be it a winter day inside or a summer’s evening outside. Come warm your hands. Loose your burden of all you were never meant to carry. Share. Laugh. And know.
You are fearfully and wonderfully made.
And as my personal favorite snowman, Olaf, would say, God only says “all good things, all good things,” for He is good.
God, we just want to be with You. Father You know us perfectly. You love us unconditionally. And You only think good thoughts about us. You call us by our name, not our sin. You see beyond the exterior, past the heart and into our innermost beings. You see the dream we have always been to You. Purposefully and wonderfully made. Thank you Father. We love you. Help us to love and see ourselves a little better, gaining a Heavenly Father’s perspective and tossing into the flames the lies of the enemy, in the beautiful name of Jesus. Amen.
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